I don't think God can hear me...
Have you ever been praying for something so long that it begins to feel like God isn't hearing you? Sometimes I have sat with Jesus on a matter for so long and nothing appears to move. Like big blockades hindering health, healing, finance or restoration. I begin to feel unheard, unknown and left. Where do you even go from this place of despair?
Psalm 138:7-8
"Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me; You will stretch out Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and Your right hand will save me. The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever; do not forsake the works of Your hands."
He Will
I remember that He is God and He will.
The truth is if I am a real believer and a real follower of God then I do not question His position, His authority or His ability to work on my behalf. I simply need to do my part to remain faithful, I trust and I wait. He is God and He is good. When I press into Him, He will press into me.
God is not annoyed with me
Sometimes in the pressure from "closing in despair" I get whiney. I complain in my heart. I am miserable and I want a response from God. I am seeking action from Him to alleviate pressures, pains and situations from my life. Thoughts of "why me" "why now" "why why why" seem to be the forefront of my thinking. I must choose to correct my lense. I must choose to believe the scriptures that talk of the Father's faithfulness. What I have learned is there are so many truths in His word that correct our view of receiving from Him. So many opportunities to choose to see rightly. What I know to be true is that God is not annoyed with me. He is not turned off or disappointed by my lack of faith in the weak moments. He is thankful when I am open to be vulnerable with Him and plead for His mercy. Just because He knows all things does not mean He does not want to hear all things from His children. He is happy to listen and to continue extending mercy to the faithful and obedient.
Perspectives & Expectations
Here is a tough reality. We set ourselves up to be disappointed. Rather than living from the perspective that who He is, is enough, we create an expectation in our minds. We then find our selves disappointed because rather than being open to receive whatever He is pouring out, however He chooses to pour out we get frustrated when it doesn't match our expectation. I want to be healed but I am not living in response to when that will occur or what that will look like. I continue in my yes to Jesus. I do what He has asked of me. Some days are physically easier than others but one thing remains "Jesus is King"and I gave Him my yes.
Trials of many kinds will come but how will you choose to get up after you've been knocked down?
I challenge you to think different. Put on the mind of Christ and see from His view not yours. Live in response to the Father not in response to the world.
God absolutely hears you. Do not quit pursuing Him just because He isn't fitting into your expectation.
